Bu kai Xin de Wo

I felt upset cos... i did somethings tht cause others to be hurt or unhappy w me... i hate myself... when can i stop doing all tht... can i just kept slient dun even say anything... just kept it in heart then say it out to hurt others.... rather suffer myself then hurt others.... hurting someone u love n care in life... jiu hao xiang sheng bu ru si.... just Hoping this feeling will gone soon.... had been 8hrs plus nv eat n drink anything le... waking up @ 2 plus had just been sitting down in the living rm playing my lappy.... wo hen bu kai xin... do wht ever things also mean nthing to me now.... haven bath, haven eat.... just stting down facing my lappy i also can day dream of how upset others is or maybe disapointed in me...